As some of you are aware, I have been refunding a lot of the commissions on my to-do list.
So, here's a list in Q&A form.
This is a lot of writing.
A: As I get older, school starts to stab me in the back harder and harder. I'm having difficulty juggling school, social life and deviantart at the same time, because I'm spending 60% of my time doing assignments and homework, 30% playing games with friends and the other 10% is needed for things like eating, sleeping and resting.
As a result of all this juggling, the number of commissions I get grows and I have little time to complete them (e.g some of them I received 6 months ago... and still haven't started..)
I would love to say "Hey, the holidays are next week, so l'll be able to work on my deviantart then!" however, I only have a 2 week holiday; and in these two weeks I have to complete an art major for school. I'll probably upload it here if it's good enough, but I can't guarantee anything.
Q: A little stress is nothing! You should be able to complete assignments and commissions in your spare time.
A: I don't want to sound over-dramatic, but I've had enough of hiding the fact: I'm depressed. The sad truth is, people think I'm only being lazy when I don't come to school, but the fact is I was having a chat with a specialist about how I was never ever to try to kill myself ever. I'm sorry you guys have to hear this.
But hey, I can still be happy! I still play games and chill with my friends who make my life worth living most of the time, and that's good enough for me.
Q: How does refunding possibly commissions make you feel any better?
A: Not having a huge to-do list is a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I don't feel like I'm letting people down if they're still waiting for something from half a year ago, and I feel better that I'm not 'stealing people's money'
Half a year is too long, I've let myself down, and I've let you all down as well. So, refunding feels like the right thing to do.
Q: Will you still do art?
A: Of course! As long as I'm still breathing, I'll find some time to do art whether it be traditional or digital.
Q: Are you going to deactivate your account?
A: Heavens, no! I sure have thought about doing it, but I love deviantart and its community too much to leave. Deviantart can't be blamed for my stress, and neither can my commissioners. So, I'll be staying on this site for a while.
Q: Will you still be taking commissions?
A: Some time in the future, YES! However, not for a while. They'll be closed until I say so.
Q: So, about the holidays...
A: I will do a HECKA HUGE amount of experimentation for my major art piece, and I really want to be able to share them with you! So yes, I will be uploading some traditional works like paintings or little sketches.
Q: What about digital art? Are you still doing that?
A: To be honest, I have over 100 unfinished digital sketches in my "ART" folder. Will I finish them eventually? Who knows. Will I still be making more and more sketches? Yes.
Q: Do you really expect anyone to read all this?
A: No. This is just in case someone cares <3
If you have any more questions, please feel free to ask.
- Peppkitty ^.^